Atticus made daddy a tie in nursery!
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Fathers Day 2011
Atticus picked out a "Darth Vader" card for Daddy that said, "You are my father" when you open the card. He opened it about a million times. I had to hide it :)
Fathers Day 2012 was emotional. Tears rolled down my sweet husbands cheeks as we listened to the primary sing. I put my arm around him and reminded him that even if Atticus were here, he would NOT be singing. In fact he would be trying to escape by crawling under the pews. Just like he did last year! No joke!! Atticus did NOT like to sing in the chapel in front of everybody and would literally try to escape! Thankfully that memory put a smile on Eric's face.
We had a yummy dinner make mostly by Becky (mom in law).
Then we went to check out this...
Then we went to check out this...
This is Bishop Larsen's field. The same field we took our last family pictures with Atticus. Bishop Larsen came to visit and check on us Saturday and told us with much emotion that, the field where we took pictures, and only that field, has blossomed with ORANGE flowers. He has never had ORANGE wild flowers blossom there before. Immediately Eric and I were in tears. Our sweet Atticus left us a gift! It was a beautiful spiritual tender mercy.
Thank you for the flowers Atticus! You never cease to amaze us. It was the perfect gift.
Then daddy opened two presents. First, I framed this picture of Eric and Atticus at the Rangers game. I love the visible love on both of their faces...
Then he opened this...
While in the Hospital I got and email from a woman who is associated with New World. It was Mother's Day when she emailed me stating that she could not get our family off her mind, so she went to her art room and did this incredible pastel chalk drawing. Again, Eric and I were brought to tears. We miss him SO much.
It's a bitter sweet ya know? We miss him, but are so grateful we got the time we did. Even more grateful we will get the time again. We are so grateful we have Isaac. So grateful he is such a loving and happy boy! He really is the happiest chubby guy!
It's weird having just one again. Someone asked me if I thought Isaac missed Atticus.. Interesting question. My answer, "I don't think so." Isaac's so young and being young the veil of Heaven is thin. Isaac probably gets more "visits" from Atticus then we do. I do however, think he notices that things are different. Everytime we walk up the stairs Isaac points to our family picture. Once at the top of the stairs, where we have a picture of Christ, he points and says, "Hi Jesus!" Then I add, Hi brother! I want Isaac to know that big brother is right next to Jesus. So we say hi to both, then blow a kiss.
One step at a time. Healing comes one step at a time. And today, my foot doesn't feel as heavy!
HAPPY FATHERS DAY ERIC
I love you SO much and so grateful we have eternity.
32 comments:
Incredible. I'm all chills thinking about those orange flowers! Hugs to you and Eric.
It's nice to see you smile in that picture! I'm happy to read that you are doing better today. I still think about your family every day. I want to say thank you too, for making me a better parent and hugging my kids a little tighter.
Hugs from MD
Those flowers are amazing!
After I read your last post, I was reminded of another post I read that you might be able to relate to. (maybe you already know about her) The whole blog is wonderful, as Ashley has very beautiful insights with her grief after losing her daughter. This post and the article she links to are great:
http://patrickandashley.blogspot.com/2011/06/different.html
and another good one here:
http://patrickandashley.blogspot.com/2012/02/hope.html
Hope it helps!
The flowers are a MIRACLE!!! And I love the chalk painting. So so kind of her to do that. You are loved!
I continue to love reading your blog, although I miss Atticus, too! This life is an incredible journey with so many twists & turns. One day we will understand the full picture, and as hard as it is today, rejoice that Atticus was so perfect that he was allowed to go back to Heaven much sooner than the rest of us. What a valiant spirit! Until that great reunion, hang on and know that many people continue to pray that you will have strength, comfort, and joy. When we feel deep sorrow over the loss of a loved one, it shows how much we truly loved them. Atticus was truly loved!!
I continue to read your blog as well. We miss Atticus too. My boys & I are still praying for him to be happy in heaven and to watch over your family. I hug my boys and Hubby a little tighter each day as we never know what trials we will be faced with. We hope that in the next life he will be friends with my boys. He is an awesome little boy and reminds me alot of one of my boys. Thank You for continuing to share with us.
Much love & still in our prayers.
Erika- West Jordan, UT
i started reading your beautiful Journey maybe 3 weeks ago, and i started from the day one when he was born,and know i finished reading the blog, im so hurt like a mother, i wake up feeling so sad, but you know what Atticus impacte my life so much, he changed my way of thinking and the way of treating my son julian wich he suffers from Asthma.but to todays blog i really think its was a gift he sent you and eric ,you , eric and baby will be in my prayers...and thank you so much for sharing this us, you have changed my life...i will have you in my prayers so god can give more courage...
lots of love guys,
Briseida Quintero. Nevada TX
I am always thinking of the Hansen family! Xxoo
I may not comment all the time, but I want you to know that I read everyday, and will for years and years to come! I wish so much for you and your family!
Thank you so much for sharing your journey with the world you guys are truly an amazing family and wonderful parents. atticus was so blessed to have you both. You both are still in my prayers daily. Your strength amazes me I know at times you feel week but you truly have wonderful strength I pray for god to be with you during these difficult times.
I totally cried with my mom about the orange flowers. How beautiful and what a special gift.
It takes my breath away. I am so grateful you were given such a sweet gift. We love you all. So many do. xoxo
You are so precious. Thanks for continuing to write. Eric certainly is one of the best fathers I will ever know. xoxo
Oh and the pictures are indeed priceless. I can't look at them without tearing up.
What is that cute Isaac up to these days?
We miss you.
Hope everyone is doing ok! I check back daily and pray for you guys!
I check your blog almost daily hoping for an update on how you and Eric are doing~I hope and pray always that these past weeks have been kind to you both.
Oddly,I feel like I have lost touch with an old friend! It looks like a few others feel the same!
A stranger who is a friend,
Leslie
Sounds like we are ALL missing you guys! Hoping and praying that you are well and feel the support and love of many people. I look forward to the time when you are able to blog again. You inspire so many with your writing ability. We LOVE you guys!
Thinking and praying for your family as always!!
I used to check your blog daily hoping that sweet atticus had a good day. I now do the same you for your and your hubby.
Many prayers still coming your way.
-From a friend you've never met
Prayers from Vegas too, from a friend you've never met.
Holidays are so very hard. Its being nearly two years since we said goodbye to our little girl, and Father's Day was still hard. I couldn't help but think of her today, as we celebrated the 4th of July. Sending many prayers your way, and wishing you didn't have to feel so much pain.
Love,
Ashley Sullenger
Thinking of you here in Arizona, too!
You haven't posted in a while, and that is completely fine and totally understandable, I just wanted to let you and your family know that I think of you and your sweet Atticus often. Thank you for sharing your story with us. I am always sending prayers, thoughts and hugs your way. -Erin
Been thinking about you guys a lot. Still praying for your family.
I always wonder how you are both doing. I too ck the blog all the time , and know that you must not be up to blogging anytime soon, and of course that makes sense. Just know that none of us who have followed Atticus' journey has forgotten him, or your family. Continued prayers as always.
Just incase you wanted to know:
I love you.
I still pray for you.
My family wears our bracelets with pride. Tanner (my 11 yr old) NEVER takes his off.
I think of you and Atti all the time.
I'm still part of yor fan club and support and I always will be.
My 5 year old prays for Atticus in heaven.
My heart is with you in Texas.
You are amazing and so loved.
xoxoxoxox
Ang
Joining in to say that I too continue to keep you in my prayers. I miss your posts but honor your quiet. I hope that you are finding some comfort in family and friends, a few glimmers of joy and laughter from your Isaac, and many happy memories that help connect you with the loving presence of your sweet Atticus. With many blessings from Rhode Island.
We are thinking about and praying for your sweet family.
I am still thinking about you often. I have never met you in person but your family has introduced my family to the Church Of Latter Day Saints.
I thank you so much for that =)
I really hope you are doing well. You are in my thoughts and prayers.
I think about you every day. We are driving to Texas right and I feel even closer to you being In your state. We pray for you daily.
Kristine
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