Thursday February 16th
Atticus is adjusting so well. For the most part, he doesn't even cry in the morning's anymore. When morning comes, he wants to get dressed right away, then we race cars, pack is snack pack, and hit the road! His is doing amazing. Absolutely amazing.
No major news today. Radiation went well. He woke up great. Happy and ready to go. I cannot tell you how much easier it makes things, having him happy. It makes a world of difference. For all of us.
Atticus Isaac and I were racing cars when Atticus said, "Mom, hand the fat kids to me. He is out of control!"
Atticus was in a GREAT mood today. He was being so silly. Isaac was being a crazy man! Shaking his head and wiggling his body... Both were very entertaining! In case you haven't noticed... we race cars ALL DAY LONG!
**Pictures from Wednesday**
Playing with Grandpa and Grandma Romera
Auntie Jenny found a BYU pillow pet. Atticus was SOOOOOOOO excited. He LOVES the cougs!! Thank you Auntie Jen. You are the B-E-S-T best!
The Primary Presidency put all of Atticus' hearts from his "heart attack" in a binder and delivered it to him Wednesday night! It is so cute.
Goofy Boys. Atticus can get chunk to make his funny face on demand!!
Sister Countryman brought a picture of her Grandpa in uniform and explained to him, that due to her Grandpa's bravery, he received a medal. She then gave him a little black box...
Atticus got his very own Bravery medal!
Confession. I think the depression is kicking in. I have had such a hard couple of days. Normally I can pick myself up, but it's been really hard few days. All I wanted to do all day long was crawl in my bed, pull the covers over my head, and escape. Im so overwhelmed with bills, paper work, and phone calls to make. Sometimes I feel like Im drowning. But here's the good news... I didn't. As much as I wanted to put on my stretchy pants and crawl into bed I didn't. I wasn't my chipper self but I didn't let myself go in to a cave of depression. Well not fully at least. I wrote thank you cards with Eric, played with Isaac, and raced cars with Atticus. I did it. Depression-0 Cindy-1.
After dinner I did crawl in to bed for minute when cute Atticus came in. That boy can turn me right around. We decided that we needed to race a few more cars before bedtime. So that's what we did. The "Rennen Rig" and "#8" were the big winners. In case you were wondering!
I want you all to know that Heavenly Father is real. There is no doubt in my mind. He loves me. And He was watching over me. He knew I needed strength tonight. Something to lift my spirits.... Tonight was
AMAZING!! It was EXACTLY what I needed....
I got Atticus out of the bath and Eric went to our room to start the Chemo when Atticus (try super hard to picture this because it is AWESOME) he is in his superman jams which are incredibly tight but refuses to let me retire them, and in all his chubby glory is "running" and giggling his pants off chasing after Eric. He gets the cutest scrunchy nose when he laughs and his double chin is AWEsome. The three of us laughed and ran around like crazy people, jumped on the bed, and had a moment that I will remember for the rest of my life.
Who has time for depression? Not me!! Tomorrow's a new day and so help me, it's going to be a good one! Mark my word.
XOXO
10 comments:
You are doing amazing! It's good to hear that he is his happy self and getting used to treatment. I pray for Atticus and your family every night. Stay strong and let me know if there is anything I can do to help. -Heidi
Please take a minute to read this. In regard to the bills, I highly suggest, that you turn those over to someone. You DO NOT NEED TO BE DEALING WITH IT! Here is how it works: 1. Every time you get a bill in, you hand it over to an organized person. 2. Authorize your insurance company to talk to this person. 3. The trusted person, gets to know your policy...for example the deductible, the percentage of payment, etc. 4. They keep on the bills, making sure the insurance company paid all that they were suppose to. 5. On each dr bill, or other charges, once your trusted person has determined that insurance has paid what they are suppose to. They organize it and then take it to you and say, this is what you owe. IT IS TOO MADDENING AND A FULL TIME JOB TO CYPHER THROUGH IT. I am an RN, I've had a very sick child. Please do this, it will save you precious time to not have to sort through it! Lots of people would be willing to do this for you!
PS...would love to see videos of the hilarious things that Atticus says. He is highly intelligent, and hilarious! I've never seen a kid be so funny!
I second Lisa's suggestion. You DO NOT need to be doing the bills, insurance, paperwork, phone calls. I know it's hard to let it go to someone else (heck I haven't been able to) but you NEED TO. It will drive you mad. Please please do. I'm six months out and still dealing with it. You don't have the time or energy right now. And most of that stuff can wait, like I said, I'm six months out and haven't paid a single bill. Give them to someone else, or put them in a folder for later.
I'm so sorry for your bad days. But so proud of you for getting out of bed and keep going. It's a hard thing to do and many don't. You are the image of strength, I admire you so much.
We love you all so much! If atticus needs a car racing buddy, Mannix would be up for the challenge. Love You!!
Not sure how I came across your blog, but please know that your family are in our prayers. My sons best friend (age 6) is also battling cancer and it is a rough road. You have every right to feel depressed! Atticus is such a darling, sweet boy! May God's peace and comfort be with you!
I'm so glad that Atticus is doing amazing and in much better moods in the morning. Yea for no meltdowns! I'm so happy he was in such a good mood yesterday--that boy sure has a knack for making people smile. I love what Sister Countryman did with the brave medal--so sweet and thoughtful. I'm grateful that you, Eric, and Atticus could have a magical moment last night together. I know Heavenly Father is blessing you. I know it's hard, but you are doing amazing, and when you think you can't do it anymore, Heavenly Father lifts you up.
Cindy,
I adore you and your sweet family... I am so grateful to have your blog to read often to continue to keep things in perspective! Your positive attitude is contagious- I know how you are feeling and the constant battle between the overwhelming love and the deepest sorrow that exists at the same time! Your Atticus is the cutesy thing ever! You are truly one of the best moms out there. I have a motto that I live by and it is, "don't waste today worrying about tomorrow". I feel like you ate a fabulous example of that! Know that much love and prayers are being sent in your direction!
Mandy Shaw
Hey pal... Thanks for the updates! We haven't met Atticus yet, but I remember those steroid cheeks... could kiss em all day! So give him hugs and kisses from the Huish's. And remember to give yourself some credit. You are going through every mom's worst nightmare. You don't need to put on a happy face all the time, and it is ok to have those "crawl into bed" moments. Doesn't mean you are weak, just human. And yes, let others help you as much as possible with the paperwork and trivial matters so you guys can just enjoy your boys and take the time you need for yourselves. You made it through to another weekend! Hope it is fabulous. :)
All our love,
The Huish family
You are doing so, so well. I continue to be amazed by you. I wish I could take some of the burden from you, but since I don't know you, I love Lisa's advice. Delegate, delegate, delegate. And if you do get depressed, it is NOT YOUR FAULT. I've struggled for years with it and I haven't dealt with what you are dealing with. It is normal, and it is okay. Please take care of yourself, We pray for you daily.
I love, love, love the part about the medal. It brings tears to my eyes every time I read it.
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